I've been dinkin' around the kitchen and dining area lately...
I think I've been making myself crazy! All along I thought it was that "White was so peaceful"; and to some it may be. But, let me tell you-- if you can't achieve The Shabby White look... it's NOT peaceful. It becomes a crazy cycle; and there you are, just spinning your wheels, trying to accomplish something that just isn't you.
Welcome to the deep end of my pool, sister!
It doesn't help matters that I'm a perfectionist; that gets caught up in
The FIRST Flaw of perfectionism--the 'all or nothing' syndrome. Yes! so while I thought I wanted it white; and nothing seemed to work in that direction for me, I had almost given up on my home being a peaceful haven ever again.
While I do believe there is much to be learned from other women about how to be keepers of our homes, busy at home, and creative at home...we (I) can easily become ensnared in the "haves and the have not's" game. That leaves you with nothing but regrets and misery. Empty handed... and unhappy. It steals your joy for sure.
I think I first noticed this when I repainted my bedroom shelving and door. I asked what your thoughts were on the matter of how to tackle an eye sore; and you all gave such wonderful insight and tips, very encouraging. Thank you for that... but the fact of the matter was, I wanted it picture perfect. So, I almost didn't post pictures of the painted results.
While I liked the green-- I was fearful of it too. I didn't want criticism for my choice of color... although Ooops! Green was already chosen for me when it was marked $5 a gallon; still I didn't want anyone to say 'why'd you paint it that color for?' The truth be told, I have chosen to walk away from plenty of gallons of Ooops! Paint because I didn't like the color. They don't all appeal to me.
No. Some in my opinion are just ugly. But...the green I like! And I'm happy with my decision.
Yes! I made a decision to buy Ooops! Green. I say I'm decisionless (not a bona fide word --but it fits) ...and I guess really deep down inside, the true me makes the decision anyway; and the true me has chosen color and placed it all around my home.
Finally, I see it and I'm starting to like it!
You know, I look around my home and at times I'm dissatisfied with the way it looks, but honestly- it just needs fluffing and a good cleaning, then everything is as good as new. I just need to check my priorities and see to it that I'm not discontent because of time spent 'blogging' and not being busy in the home. That is what pleases the LORD. Not paint colors, pillows and presentations...
Surely, I'm not alone. How about you--Have you seen your tastes changing since you've been blogging? Are you happy with the changes or disappointed?
Are you feeling the squeeze of trying to be someone that you're not? I know of several ladies that have quit blogging because of it; Because of the self promotion and 'keeping up...' aspect of blogging. That makes me sad and I miss them. I hope you don't feel that way; and I hope that You can be the Woman God created you to be right there in your home. The True You!
To God be All Glory!
The grace of the LORD Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Philippians 4:23